Same old story
All the lost opportunities
Just because I couldn’t show real me
But who is real in this insane world?
Today I feel like the king of the world
Tomorrow clown of the county
Today everyone is celebrating with me
Tomorrow they are spitting on me
Why should I show my true face?
Because I can hide behind a clown’s makeup
When night arrives
I can remove my makeup and your contempt.
And move on.
By Markku Parviainen
We had problems with our car, and of course, I had to show my wife that I know something about fixing a car.
I went and opened the hood. I looked inside and I pretended I know what I was doing.
In reality, I didn’t have any clue!
(My brother and father are good with cars, but they were not around).
I touched some cables and hoped that some miracle will happen.
Finally, I told my wife that we have issues with electronics, but I don’t have the tools to fix it so it will be better if we call a mechanic.
OK, I lied a little…I didn’t have any clue what was going on!
I think my wife knows the truth.
Yesterday, my oldest son was wearing two different colors of socks. First, I mentioned about it, but then he stopped me with one question.
“I don’t care, does it matter?”
Honestly, I couldn’t really answer him, so I just told him that he is right. You decide what you should wear.
Why should we let the outside world define what we are, and what we are wearing?
Why can’t we be free from what others might think about us?
A true person should be free from others’ opinions and judgment.
With age, comes wisdom!
I still do the same mistakes as I used to. For example, sometimes with my workout, I forget to do a proper warm-up, and then, of course, I will pay a price!
Or I think I am still in my twenties, and start pushing hard with my work out!
And in the next two days, I will be unable to walk!
Friday evening, I will take a lot of wine, and my Saturday will be ruined because of a terrible hangover.
Sunday evening, I will buy extra-large pizza, and there goes my diet!
I am over 50 now and I still haven’t learned!
Does Age really come with wisdom?
What about you?
I admit. I can’t live a so-called normal life. The last time I had a normal job was sometime in the late eighties. I have taken many risks, I have traveled a lot, and because I had an open mind, I met many wonderful people around the world.
I like to work with my own schedule and I like to have the freedom to choose the people around me.
I don’t need any negativity around me. We have just one life, and I prefer to experience life on my own terms.
Of course, it’s not always easy, but life can be hard anyway, so is it better to live your life with your own rules?
Whisper in the dark
Please go away
Otherwise, I won’t stop
I am here
I will make you feel again
Please go away
If I start again
I won’t’ stop
I can’t follow that road again
Come just one more time
You need me
Please go away
I am too weak
But I know it’s a lie
From Tales from my Dark side by Markku Parviainen
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You are still here
I can see you now
You were away a long time
But now you came back
I missed you
Sometimes it’s easy to be with you
You know me
You understand me
But if you stay here
I can’t go back
So my old friend
Farewell until we will see again
Tales from my Dark Side by Markku Parviainen