Midnight gods

Midnight darkness
I am writing, and I feel gods
Are talking through me

Morning grey
And I realize it was just me.

By Markku Parviainen


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Everything hurts
I have to stand up
New nightmares

More pain
Everything hurts
I had to stand up
I had to face the enemy
Otherwise, I will disappear

More pain
Everything hurts
This is bottom
I have been here before
Nothing new

Just raise up and fight
I am a fighter

Numb your feelings
Ignore the pain
Just keep moving

Still pain
Everything hurts

But I can see you tonight
And there will be a light

I am a fighter
That’s enough.

By Markku Parviainen


Being weird should be the new normal

Sometimes, I feel that we all are a bit weird and messed up. We just pretend to be normal. Some people are just better pretenders than others.

A true person is willing to accept his or her flaws and either fix them or accept them as strengths. Because what you might think as a flaw, someone else will think that it is your greatest strength!

But being weird and different is always better than being normal and boring.


I am a great pretender and my car troubles

We had problems with our car, and of course, I had to show my wife that I know something about fixing a car.

I went and opened the hood. I looked inside and I pretended I know what I was doing.

In reality, I didn’t have any clue!

(My brother and father are good with cars, but they were not around).

I touched some cables and hoped that some miracle will happen.


Finally, I told my wife that we have issues with electronics, but I don’t have the tools to fix it so it will be better if we call a mechanic.

OK, I lied a little…I didn’t have any clue what was going on!

I think my wife knows the truth.

With age, comes wisdom?

With age, comes wisdom!

It’s bullshit!

I still do the same mistakes as I used to. For example, sometimes with my workout, I forget to do a proper warm-up, and then, of course, I will pay a price!

Or I think I am still in my twenties, and start pushing hard with my work out!

And in the next two days, I will be unable to walk!

Friday evening, I will take a lot of wine, and my Saturday will be ruined because of a terrible hangover.

Sunday evening, I will buy extra-large pizza, and there goes my diet!

I am over 50 now and I still haven’t learned!

Does Age really come with wisdom?

What about you?

Life on your own terms and why most people can’t do it?

I admit. I can’t live a so-called normal life. The last time I had a normal job was sometime in the late eighties. I have taken many risks, I have traveled a lot, and because I had an open mind, I met many wonderful people around the world.

I like to work with my own schedule and I like to have the freedom to choose the people around me.

I don’t need any negativity around me. We have just one life, and I prefer to experience life on my own terms.

Of course, it’s not always easy, but life can be hard anyway, so is it better to live your life with your own rules?