Choose me

Choose me
I bring warmth and happiness
I bring love and tenderness
I bring light

Choose me
I bring cold and comfort
I bring loneliness and peace
I bring darkness

Choose me
I bring feelings and smile
I bring friends and family
I bring joy

Choose me
I bring pain and suffering
I bring memories and sorrow
I bring night

I know who I am
I know my past
I don’t know my future

Now I made my choice
I choose myself

But who am I?
Written by Markku Parviainen

80 years old coward and 19 years hero

You were 19 years hero
I am 80 years old coward.

You came home flag wrapped around your casket
Same time I was getting drunk with my girl
You were a brave one
I was a coward. 

60 years later I am still here
You are just distant memory
Your medals were in the auction
And they were worthless.

You were a hero
And you believed lies of faceless men
You fought for your country
I was a coward and I didn’t believe those lies.

You are gone
I am still here and I had a great life
Family, children, and happiness
You are totally forgotten
But not by me.

You were a fool
You believed all the lies and promises
For nothing.
Why?

After all these years
I see young men still believing the same lies
Faceless men are dancing and laughing
Nothing ever changes.

I still miss you.
You fool.

Written by Markku Parviainen

Broken Dreams

In the bar
Playing my guitar
No one is listening
Can’t wait until I am with you

Still playing
Why I am still playing In places like this?

Playing my guitar
The audience is ignoring me
I had my dreams
But you came

I can’t wait

Soon I will be done
I can be with you

In the hotel room
Alone with you
Finally, I can escape

A needle hits my vain
So beautiful
I am flying

Now I am truly happy
But just a moment

Playing my guitar
Another city
And I have you

Can’t wait.

Written by Markku Parviainen

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Beggar

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Beggar

You spit on my face
You kick me
Don’t worry
I don’t feel anymore
Just toss your coins

It’s cold
I can’t feel my fingers
I see hate in your eyes
I don’t care anymore
Just toss your coins

I am alone
This is my corner
Don’t take my place
I don’t have any other place
I can’t take it anymore

I can’t stop
Although I hate this
My children
For you
Please toss your coins

Please

 

 

Written by Markku Parviainen

Miss you

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Miss you

You were part of me
You never let me down
You were always there for me
But now you are sleeping

I miss you
I can still see you
I have my fading memories
I miss those long walks

But I now walk alone
And you are sleeping
I miss you

Your happiness was everything for me
I am happy for our last hours together

Now you are sleeping
You don’t feel pain anymore
I now walk alone
Without you

When we will be together again
I will see your face
And we will walk together forever
Memories of you still hurt

But it’s better this way
Until we meet again

I miss you

 

 

Tales from my Dark Side by Markku Parviainen

 

Forever young

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Forever young

Forever young
What a joke
Hated every moment
Couldn’t wait for until I was an adult

You made my life living hell
Destroyed my happiness
For your entertainment

A few years ago
I saw you on the street
A broken man
Drug addict

I went other side of the street
Didn’t want to talk with you
But I was happy for your misery

You made my life a living hell

Forever young
What a joke

 

From Tales from my Dark Side by Markku Parviainen

Angels

Angels

Angels are whispering,
Why wait, boy?
Just do it now
And everything will be
Good again.

Angels are talking
Don’t wait
Everyone is waiting
This is your time
Do it now

Angels are screaming
Are you still here?
Don’t waste our time
We are here for you
Get it done
Now

I hear from distant voices

Angels are talking themselves
We fooled him
Let’s find another one.

From Tales from my Dark Side by Markku Parviainen